When you find out you're pregnant for the first time, there is a wave of emotions that vary. For me it was sheer panic that eventually evolved into excitement. For others it's over-the-moon elation. And you have 9 months to gear up and get ready. I'm thankful that the Lord gives us 9 months, because for people like me, I needed every second of those 40 weeks....plus 2 days. And during those 40 weeks you do things differently, because you are already beginning to practice self-sacrificing love for the good of your baby. Like giving up caffeine (errr, mostly), unprocessed cheeses, sushi or your nightly glass of wine. That motherly instinct kicks in and is fierce even when you haven't met your baby.
When one of my best girlfriends was awaiting the arrival of her baby, we were talking about how excited she was to meet him and how she loves him already. And I told her, "just you wait! You think you love that baby now, and you do as much as you know how to....until you meet him." I told her how your heart grows 10 fold with that last push and doubles with every moment after. That definition of love changes so fast it will make your head spin and heart swell. It's truly unfathomable how much love you can have for a person. The current is strong and it runs deep. It's a love you can truly never dream up, unless you've known it before.
Enter baby #2 (or 3, or 4, or in my mom's case 5, 6, 7, and 8). While I "love" the baby that is growing in me now, I know it isn't a fraction of the love I will have when I push that baby out. But I do know, I will. I know lot's of mom's that worry about the birth of a second child and if they could possibly love another as much as they do their first. I'm not worried about that at all. I know I will. Just look around. Is there a mom on the planet who doesn't? I haven't seen a single one. No, I can hardly wait to do it again and for my heart to double in size. Because it will. While my first child made me a momma, and showed me how much I can love, baby #2 will show me how much more I can!
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How freaken adorable and so true :)
ReplyDeleteThis is so true! Things feel different this time around with baby number 2 though. I feel more prepared and I'm able to actually enjoy being preggo:)
ReplyDeleteI really love your blog. Thanks so much for visiting mine. It's really nice to hear insights from another Christian mom and even though I don't know you personally I will definitely be following along! Prayers for a healthy delivery of number 2. I absolutely adore the sibling love/rivalry in my house. It's crazy, but it's the best!
ReplyDeleteThis is such a cute blog. I really love this post because my husband and I have been praying about trying for a second child. It was nice to see your perspective on this subject. This exactly why I started my own blog, just so other moms have a place to go to relate. If you have time check it out :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for stopping by!!! I will be sure to check your blog out :)
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