When you find out you're pregnant for the first time, there is a wave of emotions that vary. For me it was sheer panic that eventually evolved into excitement. For others it's over-the-moon elation. And you have 9 months to gear up and get ready. I'm thankful that the Lord gives us 9 months, because for people like me, I needed every second of those 40 weeks....plus 2 days. And during those 40 weeks you do things differently, because you are already beginning to practice self-sacrificing love for the good of your baby. Like giving up caffeine (errr, mostly), unprocessed cheeses, sushi or your nightly glass of wine. That motherly instinct kicks in and is fierce even when you haven't met your baby.
When one of my best girlfriends was awaiting the arrival of her baby, we were talking about how excited she was to meet him and how she loves him already. And I told her, "just you wait! You think you love that baby now, and you do as much as you know how to....until you meet him." I told her how your heart grows 10 fold with that last push and doubles with every moment after. That definition of love changes so fast it will make your head spin and heart swell. It's truly unfathomable how much love you can have for a person. The current is strong and it runs deep. It's a love you can truly never dream up, unless you've known it before.
Enter baby #2 (or 3, or 4, or in my mom's case 5, 6, 7, and 8). While I "love" the baby that is growing in me now, I know it isn't a fraction of the love I will have when I push that baby out. But I do know, I will. I know lot's of mom's that worry about the birth of a second child and if they could possibly love another as much as they do their first. I'm not worried about that at all. I know I will. Just look around. Is there a mom on the planet who doesn't? I haven't seen a single one. No, I can hardly wait to do it again and for my heart to double in size. Because it will. While my first child made me a momma, and showed me how much I can love, baby #2 will show me how much more I can!
Wife of 4 years, mom to 1, oldest sister to 7...I'm striving to be an EXCELLENT wife, and not a perfect wife. Reading about the Prov. 31 woman is truly inspiring and something to strive for and to be encouraged by, not discouraged!